You can read all the articles on health and exercise, every blog someone writes about healthy eating/activity and eat well until it becomes a habit. But at the end of the day, this banana isn’t going to make me happy. Ok so the overall outcome might but right now that seems a little too far away.
Today I feel sad.
No, not sad as such because I have nothing in my life to be sad about. I really don’t and for that I am extremely grateful.
I feel distant.
A little lost maybe.
I’ve done my yoga, meditated and nearly cried three times already today. Yoga has a way of doing that. Making you open up and spew up raw feelings. But today instead of it making me feel refreshed and at ease, I feel a bit……..bleugh (I know that’s a made up word but it gets my point across).
So now, half way through the day, I’m finding myself staring at the rainy sky and craving numerous amounts of junk food. I know my trainer will say that if I feel that strongly and won’t feel guilty then I can eat it, in moderation. But on the other hand, I don’t want to.
Part of me wants to eat and the other doesn’t, at all, neither junk food or healthy things.
I have what I call a bit of a funk. I’m in a bit of a funk.
Where I don’t really want to make a decision, about anything. Especially what to eat. I’d quite simply just rather not eat.
Maybe I need to explore why I’m in a ‘Funk’. I know my way out of it. To simply choose a new path, a new thought. Let whatever it is go. I know all this. But when you don’t really know what it is you need to let go or what thought is troubling, how can you?
Maybe my funk isn’t anything to do with thoughts and letting go. Perhaps that’s what makes it a FUNK!
But right now, lets blame those pesky monthly hormones.
And take a walk.
And maybe eat cake.